now what ?
Posted by oross on July 12, 2007
Moving on seems to be a recurrent theme in my life as of late. I’ve moved twice within the past seven months, and already, after four years I’m thinking about exploring new venues in the field of education. Although I’m more open to it now, I was terrified of change, and would make up all kinds of excuses as to why it made sense to remain within the confines of my comfort zone. However, my evolvement as an individual crystalizes the reality that I’m destined toward a higher calling that is only hampered by my insecurities. My comfort is becoming uncomfortable. It’s making me restless, and all the tweaking and rearranging does nothing to ease this constant gnawing deep within that is propelling in another direction. Now what?
July 13th, 2007 at 8:12 am
Loved this piece! I relate. The gnawing you describe is what makes you accomplish your goals and keeps you moving…and creating. Thank you.
July 15th, 2007 at 5:43 pm
It only gets better. Changes can be challenging but think of the stagnant alternatives.
Scheherazade
July 15th, 2007 at 11:40 pm
HOw about moving this to the NWP Eanthology?
Bonnie
July 16th, 2007 at 3:25 pm
As someone who has gone through lots of change herself — change in jobs, change from having children at home to having an empty nest, even change in my perceived sexual orientation — I find your words powerful. I like how you write that your comfort is becoming uncomfortable. Sounds like an impetus for some potentially powerful change. The toughest changes (in my eyes) are those that are thrust upon us, rather than being chosen.
July 16th, 2007 at 10:19 pm
Hey Odell,
Thanks for posting this piece…I love the way it rambles through, mirroring the feelings you capture so well. I love the line, “My comfort is becoming uncomfortable. ” I know exactly what you mean!!!!
Rebecca
p.s. I hope I didn’t put you on the spot this morning when I asked for you to move closer. Selfishly, I wanted the pleasure of your company, and knew that if you were sitting near me, we’d probably get a chance to work together during Camille’s TIW. Maybe another time!
July 17th, 2007 at 11:30 pm
Odd..I, too, feel a constant need for change, for metamorphosis…I always want to be active, learning…challenging myself to avoid becoming complacent…
Yet, I want the noise to stop sometimes. Did you ever sit and just listen to your breath? Outdoors? Wind moving in the tops of trees? Birds fluttering? it’s disturbing and yet comforting. You feel small in the hugeness of everything, yet huge surrounded by the smallness of everything…all by listening to the breath…
We are kindred spirits, Odell.
July 23rd, 2007 at 5:45 pm
Change vs. comfort – I always too much of one or the other.
This summer is tilting towards the too much change side. I hope we get to compare our spare change soon.